Moment by moment this past year I have come undone. My coming undone was one of the most painful yet, freeing experiences in my life. Learning to live, trust and believe in God’s goodness through the pain and healing was just that… moment by moment. Step by step I had to commit to learning to ask for help, find time to rest and begin to heal from my past.
It’s funny when the word moment came to mind for this year I honestly believed it was going to be about enjoying the moments of life NOT about holding tight to God’s truth through the pain of transition.
As this year comes to an end I know in my heart I needed this transition. I needed to learn about boundaries and safe people. I needed to let go and trust God with EVERY aspect of my life and story. I needed to learn to embrace the pain of the past without allowing it to eat me alive.
It is with excitement and a bit of weariness that I share my new One Word… mostly because I have come to a place of knowing that what I think my word means is usually not the real reason for my word.
There are many definitions for my new word but, below is the one that has spoken to me the most;
Risen (verb) : to come into being
Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. -Isaiah 60:1
Am I the only one that thought I would have arrived at my becoming already?!
Here I am on the tail end of my thirties and still struggling to feel settled in my own skin. Embracing one’s self is not just an outward experience; embracing oneself is a process of learning to love yourself from the inside out.
I am ready to be risen from the ashes of destruction, pain, growth and development of this past year. I am ready to embrace a life of living freestyle in Father’s love. I am ready to see what is next for my journey. I am ready to embrace where I have landed while picking myself up and beginning the journey of moving forward to what is next.
Do you set goals or make resolutions for the new year or do you pick one word?
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