Honesty is more than not lying. It is truth telling, truth speaking, truth living, and truth loving. -James E. Faust
Truth be told… I am far far from perfect and I certainly do NOT have all the answers but, what I have been learning is telling the truth sets you free.
Free from shame.
Free from anger.
Free from anxiety.
Free from depression.
Free to explore who you really are deep inside.
Growing up I was the “good girl” who was helpful around the house and worked hard to please everyone around me… to my own detriment. People pleasing and stuffing my feels exploded last year into a mess I just could NOT get myself out of no matter how hard I tried and tried and tried.
Once I began to explore my past and my feelings I realized I had been in the unhealthy habit of lying and hiding my true self for years. I wanted to be liked so bad that I became what people needed me to be instead of developing my own personality and opinions.
If my pastor told me to be against gay marriage I would buy the bumper sticker, put the sign on my lawn and “fight” for what I was told was right or wrong in our society.
If someone said NOT to read Fifty Shade of Grey or watch a certain movie I would not do either of them out of obedience.
Being a chameleon is hard work.
Changing my colors, opinions and personality to suit others around me drained the life right out of me.
I have dreamed of writing all my life and I found myself reading and doing everything everyone else told me to do in order to build a platform and make a name for myself.
Exhausted and out of words.
Depleted and lost in this world, uncertain of whom I am or what my actual voice was in this crazy chaotic world.
I decided it was time to tell the truth.
I began to work through emotional neglect from my childhood. I finally admitted I was assaulted and harassed in the Navy while on active duty. I realized I did not desire to play the game the way I have been told to play it since I was a little girl.
This world will tell you who you are if you let it…it is our job to take control and tell the world who we are and what we believe even if it is NOT the popular opinion.
I read what I want to read.
I watch what I want to watch.
I began to believe loving people was more important than using the Bible as an excuse to minimize or belittle another person.
I believe sharing a cup of coffee or glass of wine is more life changing than standing on a corner yelling at people and telling them they are doomed to hell if they do not accept Jesus.
Opening our homes and hearts to love all kinds of people is a better use of our time than sitting in a seat facing forward listening to someone tell us how to live our lives and where to give our money in order to be “blessed”.
Distorting the Gospel for personal gain has to be one of the most manipulative and hateful things we do today. By doing this we miss the opportunity to be Jesus to the people in our actual neighborhood.
The truth is we are all broken and have fallen…and we will most likely do it again and again a million times over however; it is not the falling that matters but, the attempt to get up and try again and again.
Own your story and your truth no matter what; even if the fear of possible condemnation is stopping you from speaking your truth.
Be set free to tell the truth, your truth from your lense of life. It will not fall on deaf ears. The opposite will happen. You will begin to do life with others struggling to find their own unique path. Those of us stumbling and trying to give words to our truth, to our pain and to our realities.
It is no longer approval or pleasing I am seeking instead, I want to find my people…the people willing to tell the truth and those who are tired of playing nice or being politically correct for approval.